Oliver describes his own experience with depression and suicidal ideation, explaining it as a gradual process where negative self-reflection builds a mountain of unmanaged problems, making death seem like the easier path.
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Oliver Anthony: I just got to a point where it's just like, yeah, just a very overwhelming sense of numbness. Like nothing really, nothing that mattered before really matters anymore. Like, I guess that's probably, to me, the definition of depression is when all the things you love and care about are just meaningless and you can't find, you really can't find meaning or purpose or excitement in anything, you know? Like, I think, especially with men that commit suicide, it's a prolonged period of that. It's not like they just wake up one day and they have a bad day and they kill themselves. It's like, you self-reflect negatively about yourself and your life, and you don't do the things that you're supposed to do every day for a long enough period of time. And it's like, pretty soon you've built this whole mountain of mismanaged, neglected stuff, for lack of a better word, like this mountain that you have to climb back up in order to fix all these things that you should have been doing all along. And then on the other side of it, it's like, well, I could just die. Like that seems a lot, like it's almost like for, I think from a man's perspective, maybe the friends that I've had that I've lost, it seems like a lot of times you think you'd never see it coming.